Shadow and Light

A lover once told me I should read detective novels. One sunny afternoon he had come home and found my face a bit soggy. “Have you been reading spiritual books again?” he asked. I nodded. He hugged me and said “You should stick to detective stories.” I presume he was...
Sweet Pea Riot

Sweet Pea Riot

When I was in the first grade, I helped my mother grow sweet peas on a big trellis she had built herself. I loved the paradoxical wildness of the delicate flowers, brilliant colors, and prolific blooms! They grew like crazy in the short Alaskan summer. One day my...

In the End, What Would I Want?

 Death is the perfect awakener. Recently I was doing some inner work using suggestions from Spiritual Warrior, John-Roger. The task was to answer a few questions regarding death. “What would you do if you knew you were going to die soon.” I gave that some thought and...

Sharing My Story

It isn’t easy for me to share my personal stories. For years, people have said to me “You should tell your stories!” Yeah, maybe someday. Gosh, is it someday already? Why is it difficult to share? One word… starts with a V. Vulnerability has never been a favorite...

Self-Compassion and Grace

I didn’t learn self-compassion at home or at school. I grew up in a semi-remote area in Alaska. My mom left my reclusive engineer dad and me when I was around 7.5, by the time she got around to making a brief reappearance I’d had enough and I ran away from home midway...